Can't Foresee, Just Believe

I can't begin to write
What I know I'll feel
Later into the night
But I can speculate
On what I might
But who knows 
What insights
This introspective mind
Might survive
Might give life to
Spark a fire to
Enlighten
Or will I frighten
Myself
Yourself
Ha
Not again
Focus
Not now
Let yourself
Myself
Ha
Again
Right now
Be rocked
By what civilization
Has given and driven
The power of our minds
When our wheels
Are grindin'
Strong as steel
Stealing 
Surroundings
And ideas
To form the ideal
Space and time
You find in your prime
And train
To refrain
And abstain
Yet indulge
Till you're bulging
With too many 
Ideas
Illusions
Confusion
Lift the haze
And enlighten
Yourself
Myself
Hahaha
That's thrice
What a night.